Wow I cannot believe that it is allready the middle of September. The girls will be 20 weeks this Saturday. I feel like the past 5 months have been such a blurr sometimes!! The girls are doing great. We are at 7lbs5oz for Madelyn and 6lbs 10oz for Ella!! They are so cute smiling and talking to us. They are really noticing eachother. it is so cute!! Well we have been out do do a few things lately Lisa and Jesse were here for Labor day and we

all got together. All the kids had a great time. Lori and Jay have quite the slide!! It is so FUN!! We finally got to meat Jordan! since we cannot travel there yet, plus i think i would just bring heartache to Lisa and Jesse's house right now!!WE are hoping that the girls will get to get rid of the Monitors soon!! That is happy news.....Shawn is going strong in school right now. I do not think that i could do as much as he does for school then work then the girls and then dealing with ME!! He is wonderful, sometimes i do not think that i say it enough!!

Sunday sept 23rd markes a horrible day in my(all fo our) life! It will be 3 long years since I last got to hug or kiss my precious sunshine. It is a day that marked the event, but i live through that tragic day everyday of my life! these babies are so precious, but they cannot take away the awful hole and void that is missing from my life. I know that Devon would be so proud of them and he would be so happy. I know that he is watching from above, and I am so thankful to know that, but i miss him so much and so wish that he was here for me to hold and give kisses to. I miss him more than I ever thought possible! God continue to give him a kiss for me and hold him by the hand, until i can get there!! Please continue to carry me through this life. Protect all of my precious babies!!I love you Devon, and i miss you so much!