Getting better at this blogging

Well I am getting the hang of this. This morning at church I told Sarah I saw her blog with the cute new background and I tried forever last night to get mine to be cute as well. Well I went to bed last night telling shawn that I am an idiot when it comes to this blogging with all of the cute things on the site. But today I have redemed myself. I even had Sarah lined up to come over to teach me. I am figurung this thing out. Just wait who knows what I will have done next time!! Slowly getting better......It is a beautiful day here and I think we are going to try to get out and work in the yard!! Just posting some pictures of my cuttie pu-tuttie girls........

God leads us in happy and sad times...

Happy Easter

Wishing everyone a Happy Easter. It was really cold here but we managed it anyway. The Girls looked supper cute. We all enjoyed the day!! We ate with Daddy & Mama, Lori, Jay & the kids, and Granma after church at Furrs. Then we went to Shawn's parents house to eat again. We had a modified Eater egg hunt there in the living room. Then that night we went to Daddy & Mama's house for another modified hunt in there living room. Then we went and ate at Rosa's with Daddy & Mama, Lori & Jay and the kids. It was lots of fun. The only thing that would make it better if Devon were here and Lisa & Jesse were here too. I miss Lisa being here...




God leads us in happy and sad times...

Better at bites now

So many changes seem to happen daily. Madelyn got her first tooth on March 10, then a second on MArch 17. Ella is working really hard on the first tooth, it has been tough getting these teeth. Madelyn is still crawling like a mad woman. Ella has got the hang of it and is gaining on Madelyn fast. Ella is pulling up to her knees. They are pushing 15 1/2 pounds. Getting so big. They make me laugh everyday. We are ready for spring warm weather. Ready to be out and about outside. Shawn is doing really good. Still in school, and working so hard for all of us. I thank God everyday for my wonderful family!

God leads us in happy and sad times...

Having a bad day, it just happens sometimes.......

I was thinking today that I wanted to try to get this blog updated. I see all of these blogs with all of these neat things on them. Like links it web sites, daily verses, just some really neat things and I thought well I can do that. Well no I can't. I have tried and I can not seem to figure it out. I guess I am really not that good at this blogging thing.... I have been doing a lot of thinking and I have decided that although I am so happy to have the best husband in the whole world, and the two most perfect girls in the world....I am really sad.I am missing such a huge part of me. I keep thinking that these girls keep me so busy, I should be so happy. I know that really most days I am very happy, really but some days it hits that I have been pushing back how truly sad I am. I guess that I thought the longer it has been and the busier that i am it will get easier. I just want to say it out loud that it doesn't get any easier. The hurt and empty feeling just cannot be replaced. Devon would be ten this year, and it has been 3 years and 5 months and 14 days since I got to hug, kiss, listen to his voice, or tell him how much I love him. IT seems like yesterday and at the same time it seems like forever ago. I really don't know where this came from today. Just been a bad day all together. I just know that I have been shut in for 1 1/2 years now, and maybe it is getting to me. I just know that I should be going to Devon's baseball games, taking him to school, picking him up, going to gymnastics, taking him with me to church. He should be here to help me with the babies. I think i would brave the grocery store by my self if he were here to help me. I guess that i am just finally saying somethings out loud that I have been repeating to my self since I lost him. I just miss him, and I miss how even busier our lives should be because he should be here. It hasn't gotten easier, God just gave me 3 reasons to finally smile again. And he gave me the knowledge that Devon is with him and safe waiting for me. I love you Devon, my sunshine.


God leads us in happy and sad times...

Finally All Is Well

I am happy to look at the calender and see that we have made it to March. We are ready for the spring, and hopefully to leave all of the sickness in the cold behind us. @ weeks ago Madelyn was really sick with High temps and runny nose with some coughing. She was sick for a good week. I was awaiting Ella to start getting sick when I started running temps. after about 3 days of fever and not feeling good at all I went to thr Dr. I had the Flu. Thankfully Shawn was able to be home to help me. I could not have made it without him here. Thank you so much honey! I love you!! After about a week of feeling awful I have been doing much better. It is really awful when Mommy is sick!!!

As for the little girls that are doing really good oh by the way Ella never got it!! Madelyn is crawling everywhere pulling up to a stand and letting go!!! Ella is beginning to get on all fours and rock. She is going to go any day. We are all just looking forward to it getting a little warmer so we can get outside to play!! I miss going for walks!! But I know the hot weather will be here before we all know it!!